Ed, you are not alone. God's grace and mercy and the thousands of family here on this forum are here to comfort you and your family. My dad passed away Christmas seven years ago. I know and share your pain because I have walked in your shoes. Hold on to the wonderful memories he left you and find your comfort in the scriptures. He is in the land of "No more.". No more pain. No more worries. No more crying. No more broken fishing knots. No more worries. He raised a fine son in you. Trust God. He will help you through this.