Stay strong Jamesdean.DRFISHDUCK, I know the feeling all too well, I went to Germany the first time in OCT. '77 and Lost my brother the following Feb.Was later set to Ft. Lewis for a short spell, then over to Greece on a hardship tour. Got there inn June, Dad Passed in December...Both great fishing partners. Then 10 yrs later it was Mom, two yrs later my oldest sister, Now my last sibling...To say one gets used to sorrow and hardships is an understatement. I know I have not gotten completely over losing any of them...But one has to pick themselves up, dust themselves off and keep putting one foot i front of the other one. Life continues even when you want the ride to just slow down a little, it seems to speed up...I hold a lot of things in,don't show too much. One day the dam will break...